Y Monday, December 15, 2008Y
3:13 PM
Actually got alot of my colleauge ask me. I and J are steady together or just friend. And I say we are just friend who can talk alot of thing. I have trying to give each other a chance but i found that cannot lol. I really can't see anything at all. I know that he love me but just that i don't have that kind of feeling. Love is when u see each other ur heart beat will come faster. Love is that went you see him/her happy and you will be happy. Love is that don't need to be together as long as two of us love each other, one day we will still together forever. Love is just very simple on it. But i just dun have that kind of heart beat. HAHAHA.... I know he care me alot and find alot of way to make me happy and try his best to meet me up no matter how tired he is and trying his best to send me back home and worry about me when i had not reach home. I know he do alot of thing on me. And i can see it on my eye and feel it on my heart. No matter, i go out until how late with my friend. He really dun sleep and wait for me to call or sms him cos he want me to safety reach home. But i find that only he is the one who doing everything on me. And i like don't bother on it. I really don't know what to do. Alot of people call me to be his GF lol, since he treat you so good. Not i don't want to be his GF but i really don't have that kind of feeling to love him. I know say very easy but if you want to do really not easy at all. But last few day i really think alot of thing. Sat nite, we really have a heart to heart talk lol. But i saw his face look very sad when i say i can't accept his love and I want to be his best friend forever. I find that i am a very bad gal. Cos i dun want to keep on like this. It was not good cos he is the one who keep on give in and think about me. And i really never do anything for him at all. Maybe he is not the person, i want it. Or we are not suit each other at all. So i tell him stop doing all this thing at me. And stop waste time at me. He can find a better gal then me. So we talk until 3plus then i went back home. Actually, he want to send me home but i told him i want to go back myself so i dun need him to send me back. Then he say okie but reach home need to sms him. So I say okie, once i reach home i will sms him. Then sunday i received his sms. He say he will love me until i accept him. I like wow lau. He really don't understand what i am talking on it. Then i ask him one question. Got one guy woo me and i like him. What will he do if i have a bf already? He say as long as he see me happy then he will be happy. The guy can make me happy and treat me good. He will happy for me but he also will waiting for me. No matter, how long is it until he find his Ms. right then he will forget me. He got abit touched me but just that we don't have that kind of feeling. ok ok i should stop here already. cannot say so many thing...